Some people that drink too much alcohol and don't know when to stop drinking begin to depend on alcohol everyday of their lives, as I did for many of years. It started as just a fun time out with the guys, to being full blown addicted to alcohol.
I couldn't go one day without alcohol in my system. It was now a huge part of my life, and the life I had before being addicted to alcohol was my dear family, my wife and my children. Those people were put behind my addiction to alcohol when alcohol finally took over me.
My warning signs of getting closer to rock bottom were getting clearer as each day and week passed. I asked myself, "why do I depend on alcohol so much?" "Why can't I go a day without drinking alcohol?" So in reality, deep down inside me, I knew I was doing wrong in my life, but just didn't have the willpower to say no more, and to just surrender once and for all. My demons have taken over me and wouldn't let me go until, October 27, 2009 when I stopped drinking forever.
This was getting frightening to me, and was effecting my family life too. I saw it coming slow, but sure, but I couldn't change my way of life all because of this addiction I now have. I was afraid to try and stop drinking alcohol because I didn't know if anything bad would happen to me regarding my health and getting sick from no alcohol in my body. Not only that, I wasn't ready to surrender to this addiction to alcohol I had. I loved the buzz alcohol gave me, although hated the hangovers in the morning, but once that first alcoholic drink was drank I was like a new man, or was I?
WHAT WERE THE WARNING SIGNS FOR ME HEADING CLOSER TO ROCK BOTTOM:
- I needed to drink everyday, sick or not.
- I started to drink alone.
- I hid my alcohol from family and friends.
- I didn't want to ever eat with my family.
- I never ate anything until I had my fill of alcohol for that day.
- My appearance was getting worse as the weeks went by.
- I gained so much weight from the alcohol. (beer)
- I stopped wanting to go with my family to family affairs.
- I would never go anywhere unless I knew there was alcohol being served.
- If I went somewhere where alcohol WASN'T being served, I brought my own and hid it.
So, rock bottom for me was right around the corner, and if I didn't realize it when I did, I would have lost everything I worked so hard to have, and that includes my family.
Don't let yourself go to the point of being so close to rock bottom like I did. Catch it before it is too late my friends.
Mine you, I have NOTHING against anyone that drinks alcohol. I just wished I could drink socially, but that is impossible for me, so I just don't drink.
Drink alcohol and have a good time, BUT drink responsibly, and don't abuse alcohol or your body. You will pay for it in the end, so please be careful, and think before you drink and NEVER DRINK AND DRIVE!
