Do you think being an alcoholic is fun? None of us set out on a giving day and just decide to start destroying ourselves with alcohol.
Understanding what an alcoholic goes through each day is what I have to try and explain in my own words, and possibly speaking for all those that are addicted to alcohol as I was over two years ago.
Life isn't easy being an alcoholic. You can ask anyone that has or had any kind of addiction, whether it be drugs or alcohol. We fear not having alcohol in our system for any length of time. We constantly worry what people think about our addiction to the alcohol. We fear if we stop drinking, will something happen that will harm us such as the DTs, shakes, tremors and anything that would effect the body by the absence of alcohol, or should we continue on our path to self destruction to avoid any health problems as such. But, we know deep down we are doing wrong and sooner or later our addiction will catch up with us and it won't be a pretty thing for sure. We are planing our own death in a sense and really on our own terms. We know we are killing our self slow but sure, BUT it still isn't enough to make us stop drinking alcohol. Sad, but true.
We wait for the right moment until we can have that first of many drinks of the day. The minute we awake from our restless nights sleep, if we sleep at all, and if we do sleep, I would call it passed out instead, when we can open that can of beer or take that cap off our bottle and start the process all over again.
Many of us are great in hiding our addiction, so we think. We want in the worse way to live a normal life and not be drunk each and everyday, but the addiction and the demons inside us grabbed us for good. We are trapped in our own bodies and don't know how to get out. We suffer each day with our addiction and many times wonder where we will get the money to support our everyday addiction to alcohol.
When we go out on a drunken evening of fun and morning comes, we often wonder to our self if we said anything bad to anyone that would offend them or did we do anything that might of hurt someone the night before. We wonder these things because of being so drunk and not caring what we said or did until we sober up the next morning and try in the worse way to remember the evening before, but many of us just can't remember anything. So, we may ask some of the people we were with that evening and hope and pray they don't tell us anything bad that we may have done. Some of us are even afraid to ask that question for fear inside our self that we may have said or did something that wasn't right, but really didn't want to know the true answer, so we ask nothing. we figure if we did do or say anything someone would most likely say something to us right?
We wake up in the morning feeling like crap and swear we will never drink alcohol again, until a little bit later in the day when we get our senses together and start feeling somewhat back to normal, if that's what you call it. We wonder to our self, "should I have a drink or not after the night I had?" Of course, it doesn't take long for the alcoholic to make up his/her mind to drink or not. We take that first drink of the day in hopes it will help straighten us up and it does somewhat and guess what, we are right back in the same boat we were in hours before and drinking the day and night away. A constant cycle, day after day, week after week, month after month.
If you never had the experience of being addicted to alcohol, then you are one lucky person, and saying that, clean and sober people should not down those that have this addiction and in fact they should try to comfort them and help them realize that there is a better life out there being sober.
For anyone that hasn't experienced an addiction in their lives I would suggest watching the TV show on A&E called "Intervention" and you will see first hand what a person that has an addiction goes through each and everyday of their life and how the families suffer right along with the addicted person and how they, the families try there hardest to get their son, daughter, spouse, friend, etc. the help they need to get their lives back on track and surrender to their addiction.
I have heard so many people stating that, " this guy or gal is an alcoholic and is worth nothing in life." They are a total mess and a menace to society. If you could only walk in an alcoholics shoes for one day you will then realize that being an alcoholic is a horrible thing and anyone that is one can tell you that their life is for crap. They don't know how to get out of the addiction that has grown to love them. Their demons are very well settled in their bodies and it will take a lot to get rid of them once and for all.
Clean and sober people have to understand what the alcoholic is going through in order to feel their pain. As far as anyone that is addicted to alcohol, we the alcoholics certainly understand, and always remember your not alone.
If we all decide to quit drinking alcohol we will see that there is a real life out there to enjoy. So, let all of us that have this horrible addiction start to prepare for a life of sobriety. I did it, although it was tough, but not as bad as I thought it might be. I did it and so can you.
Get focused, get determined and get positive for the new life that you are about to start. Never let anyone or anything stand in your way of getting clean and sober. Be stronger than your addiction and get sober once and for all.
